i had a dream i fell in love with a man-boy. he was the opposite of me, in all the right ways. i would see him in the background, observing others. he wasn’t stupid, he radiated a quiet intelligence. he tried to talk to me once and, thinking i was being harassed, i shoved him away until i realized it was just the wallflower. we started talking and i mentioned and incident with troy that i was having trouble with and he told me he had seen it all. he had been watching me the whole time. i don’t really remember the dream much more. i just remember the feeling of falling in love. it was so….innocent. i don’t even think we did anything extraordinary. we would just lay together with our arms around each other and just talk. sometimes we would lay with out clothes off but we didn’t have sex. it was all i wanted. the level of comfort i had experienced was divine. i remember finally feeling like i had met the one-this was it, my search was over.
then i woke up.